Written on the plane...1/29
So, I am traveling for business this week. Its been a whole year since I have had to go on a work trip...and about 2 years before that. Its not too much to ask...and the change of pace is good for me. It reminds me how much I like my work, my life, and how much I love my husband and my kids.
Luckily I have a supportive husband, and some great friends helping me out so I know that evenyone will be taken care of. Even so...I still worry about how everyone will do when I am gone. It's weird b/c when Carl goes away (even though he's been home for over a year now) he leaves for so long. I hardly ever go away...so I think it is harder for the kids to adjust since I am thier constant.
I read to the kids last night before bed. When Carl is home (meaning not deployed) he does the bedtime routine. It is really the only time during the week he gets to spend with the kids. But since I was leaving early this morning I read and tucked the kids in. Here's how it went...
Me: Good night baby.
Dara: Good night mommy. See you tomorrow.
Me: No baby...mommy is going to work tomorrow. I will see you on Friday
Dara: OK mommy. I will miss you.
Me: I love you
Dara: I love you too
Caleb: "Mommy, I don't want you to go to work."
Me: I know buddy...but i wont be gone long
Caleb: I want you to stay here
Me: I know...but mommy only has to do this once or twice a year
Caleb: Twice? I don't want you to go twice! Do you go to work so you can make money?
Me: Kind of. I go to work because that's just what I do.
Caleb: Can you leave me something so I can remember you. Maybe you could draw me a picture of yourself
Me: Don't worry. You won't forget me. How bout I write you a note?
Caleb: OK. That would be good. How about you 3 write notes?
Me: OK...I'll do that.
Me: Good night dilly
Dilly: Good night mommy
Me: I will see you soon OK. Save me some snuggles for when I get home
Dilly: OK. But I don't want you to go to work.
Me: I know But I will talk to you on the phone...ok. And ou will have so much fun that you will hardly miss me.
Dilly: Can we talk on the computer?
Me: Maybe
Dilly: Ok. I love you mommy
Me: You too baby
So...that was harder than I thought. I mean...they were all ok. But it was harder for me to say goodnight than I thought it would be. I will be the first to admit that I enjoy a break from my children. That as much as I cherish them and the moments we spend together, sometimes those moments are simply too much.
I will only be gone from them for 4 days...not even...since I will see them Friday night before bed and I was so sad last night and this morning. I even teared up a little on the drive to the airport.
